Cold feet under the blanket. Sleepy kisses during the night. Big coffee with warm milk in the morning. Long evenings. Clear skin, warm baths with candles, words full of passion and staring into each other’s eyes.
The touch of your hands to the rhythm of the music, fascinating books, hot rays of sunshine and endless travels. Acceptance, truth and trust, which over time turn into real magic.
I don’t need to have everything at the same time, but I want to feel everything at once. I want to get overwhelmed by simple pleasures and build my (un)ideal life out of them. I want to finally understand that every feeling is for feeling.
I want to try and allow things to get worse before they can get better. I want to taste different flavors and choose my favorite combinations. I want to eat, sleep, repeat and believe in good people.
I don’t want to be afraid of feelings. I want to hug my fears and tell them that everything will be okay. I want to hold the insecurities in my hands and show them the bright side of life. I want to appreciate my issues because it is they that help me understand what’s essential.
I want to enjoy everything and notice what does not bring me any joy. I don’t want just to sit around and wait for better times doing nothing. Even if today’s life is more challenging than ever, I do not want to stop searching for all the little moments of comfort, pleasure and happiness. I want to fight for them even harder.
I want to make plans and be dreamy, but I don’t want to focus too much on the future. The pandemic made us aware that there’s no guarantee that we will have a chance to experience it the way we plan it. Instead of wondering what I would like to accomplish during the next year, I prefer to ask myself what I can do until it comes.
What can I do n o w?
I am bored with living in a culture focusing on meaningful compelling past and amazingly important future. I am annoyed with being stacked somewhere between significant memories and established expectations.
You can dance in the storm. Don’t wait for the rain to be over before because it might take too long. You can do it now. Wherever you are, right now, you can start, right now; this very moment.
― Israelmore Ayivor
I don’t want to wait anymore.
I want to simply play with the presence.
I want to dance.
There’s no point in wondering how you see your life
unless you figure out how you want to see your now-s.